Facebook keep reminding me how terrible my first months of study were. I missed class once because I totally forgot about the schedule, until Asher and Joao sent me the text me asking whether I was okay or sick. I remember how I was so excited to have the guru himself at our class but it turned out disappointed because he is too old to speak louder and no presentation. He wrote on his paper. Amazing!
Days of essay approached so did the cold weather. The great of horror combine! The seasonal affective disorder syndrome during November – January was so depressing. Tears of home sick to sick of the essays happened. If it wasn’t because of wonderful friends I had, I might not pass the depression. It was very funny when everyone relied on me to bring the sunshine to them with my smile, laughter and dumb joke sometimes so naïve, I was just the same, a weepy girl, cried a lot of missing home and my love one, not to mention those English literature that got me headache every day.
Time flies and when summer came we were all busy with the final project and dissertations. Nights at the library were fun because of friends, long discussion that end with gossiping. Heavy eyes of reading books and books suddenly wide awake when a cute guy or girl passes us by. We were gaining weight because of fast food and sugar on the table while reading and writing. We become close then before, our groups suddenly enlarged, from different courses, different levels, and different background.
Tears, laughter were worth it. Friendship is the most wonderful treasure I have. I had the most wonderful year of my life, yet the saddest one. He told me once that if I pass London then I will pass every challenge in my whole life. Well I never wish to pass London without him, since he was always there to help me pass my days with laughter.
Yesterday, I received the overall result, pass with Merit! I was surprised because I wasn’t sure if I can get Merit! Pass will be just enough for me. I couldn’t make it without help from friends, pray from my family and of course he who sat next to me most of the time while I did my study. I celebrate the wonderful day… alone… without friends and family. Instead of having fun, I slept with tears! I miss all of you people; mom, zi, akang, friends from London, friends in Jakarta and Jon… what is the use of having a wonderful time if I don’t have anyone to share my happiness with…
I pass my study, I pass all the London drama, Merit is just a paper, what I had in a year worth beyond Distinction…